(Verse 1)
You’re not even trying, and I still fall
You text at midnight like that means nothing at all
I say I’m busy, I’m just lying
Replaying things you said without trying
I should delete you, block the trail
But part of me hopes you might derail
And crash back into what we were
Even if it always hurt
(Pre-Chorus)
I light candles, I look bored
But I still check if I’m adored
I wear this mask like I’ve moved on
But I’m just playing your theme song
(Chorus)
I don’t want to want you, but I do
I don’t chase, but I still move toward you
You’re bad for me, but feel brand new
I hate how much I still see you
In strangers’ hands, in songs, in shoes
I don’t want to want you
Yeah, I do
Yeah, I do
(Verse 2)
You liked her post, yeah, I saw it fast
Felt it echo like a punch that passed
And I acted like I didn’t care
But I dressed up like you’d be there
I should outgrow you like a phase
But you’re the ghost I never erase
I sing your name behind my teeth
And call it “melody”
(Pre-Chorus)
I go on dates, but drift away
No one looks like you that way
I fake my peace, I wear it well
But my chest still rings like a warning bell
(Chorus)
I don’t want to want you, but I do
I don’t write love songs. but here’s one for you
You’re toxic-sweet, but I crave truth
And somehow, it still sounds like you
I try to starve what we once knew
But I don’t want to want you…
(And I do)
(Bridge)
Tell me why the heart remembers
What the mind keeps trying to undo
Tell me why I feel your ember
In a flame I never meant to renew
(Final Chorus)
I don’t want to want you, but I do
Like a bruise I press to prove it’s true
You’re bad for me… but so are few
And none of them taste quite like you
I should’ve burned the whole damn view
But I don’t want to want you
And I do.