Tryin’

If you enjoy the song, please leave a comment and a like, it is very much appreciated <3 ===================== "I'm trying... I really am..." This song is a cumulation of my fears and dark thoughts. I so often feel like I am failing, disappointing everyone, but mostly myself. It is then when I need to remind myself how hard I am trying, how hard it is to keep going, keep trying... How much I am doing my best to hold it together, smiling, showing up, pretending I’m fine, while a storm of darkness is blowing inside of me. And even though I might be failing, I AM still trying. Even when it feels like I’m not. Even when I don’t know how... god, I'm still trying. ===================== This song is the conclusion of an enormous struggle to create something I deemed good enough for Suno Song Contest, it took me to the brink of madness, but I finally think it is good enough, I hope you feel the same... because, by god, I'm tryin... tryin to create stuff that makes me feel. ===================== Sebmeister: https://open.spotify.com/artist/59h75rnuDV5zOjAAFAEDUQ?si=LTfmYDk0QqKnunTTvx4_yw Paper Heart's Club: https://open.spotify.com/artist/02WRrs6ev9fYxbytz1BoRk?si=1BH4a9qJSTmeT6leZoBg0A Join the AI Musical Artists Collective at AIMAC.info ===================== Lyrics: ===================== [musical intro] [slow building clean guitar] [spacious delivery] [emotional raw building vocals] I'm trying I am trying I AM trying I REALLY AM... [violin solo] [removed so many tags here] Here I sit in front of an empty page, waiting for the inspiration to come, and it just doesn't... even that is abandoning me now... I know in life I'm not performing, But at least in this music I am... ...or was... ...This can't fail me now too. ...I'm scared... ...Scared that this too will end, That I am alone... Alone with nothing but my failure. Nothing but this pain from which I am fleeing... These thoughts I don't want to see... This dark circle in my soul... that I happily ignore, while I'm pretending to be fine, pretending I am less tired than I am, Laughing that life isn't that bad, Smiling three times in the mirror... before I smile in real life, Trying to be here, when my kid talks to me, trying to be present, but failing trying but failing trying but failing but failing [breakdown] I'm drowning Or maybe I've drowned before I'm drowning Or maybe I've drowned before [slow piano outro] [whispering] Is there anyone out there that will notice this fake smile Is there anyone out there that will pull me out of here cause [full loud][clear emotional vocals][huge expansive cello orchestral][heavy epic drums] I'm trying but failing trying but failing.... [angry][furious][broken in pain][emotional][seething][more emotional] but still trying... I'm still trying... god, I'm still trying... I'll keep trying... I'm still trying... I'm still trying... god, I'm still trying... I'll keep trying... give me strength... I'm still trying... hmmmm [slower guitar] [spoken][tired] I'm... still trying...